Personal Reflections on Pressure

Pressure was defined in scientific meaning as force per unit area. Somehow, this pressure seems rather relevent to personal pressure. The more we force someone with little area to breathe, the more pressure the person will feel.

Sometimes. it seems only a line difference in giving pressure and showing concern. Whether it will be which side of the line really depends on the receiving end's interpretation of our intentions.

Life seems like driving a car at times. You can choose not to drive a car for a very long time and soon you might even grow to fear of driving although you know that you should be able to drive it through. So if thats the case, how does one tries to overcome such fears. My personal views would be to go and drive in a place where there is a large amount of space. This huge amount of freedom gives you the confident to adapt to the car's motions and pace and eventually overcome it and become acustomed to it.

Hence to a relationship context point of view, my best guess would be to maintain a normal simple relationship without asking for further commitments till both are ready to take it up. This sounds so much easier than done. But nevertheless, i going to try this approach. I cannot force her considering that she has pretty much very little space so my only choice seems to be trying to expand her space area.

She said that "the more i give, the more she feel pressurised". This seems to be a very important signal of distress and a sign of her lack of confidence to accept my concerns. I remembered that you asked me on what i wanted for my birthday. Well in most selfishness way of replying, i only want your whole heart. I already have a part of it and i am waiting for the remaining parts.

I do not wish to force you and all my concerns for you are just out of my self-giving love for you. I do not expect you to return the same amount of passion and concern. I am still waiting for those special wordings and truly hope that they will come to me.